Today is my two year cancerversary. I’m glad today is not December 23, December 29, or December 31, last year. I’m also glad it’s not December 29, 2008, or January 2009.
I am glad to be where I am, as opposed to where I have been, even with the impatience and the fatigue and the wanting to be done with all of this cancer (curse word).
My Eucatastrophe and Thank You post still sums up my thoughts and feelings about my process.
Somehow I need to figure out how to be glad to be here, for however long I’m still here, instead of feeling like I’m making up stuff do to while I’m waiting to go Home.
I have recently had the terrifying thought that this cancer (curse word) could drag out for another year, or several more years.
Part of my struggle with being here is that I have this mental picture of “death,” of the final Transition Home, and I have more and more limitations here.
Oh well, that’s it for now.
Today is also my parents’ 48th wedding anniversary. My parents are an outstanding example for their ten children and they are responsible for instilling in us the mental, emotional, and spiritual resources we continue to grow in. One of the most awesome things about my parents, for me, is their ongoing desire for personal change and transformation as they seek God's direction for their lives.
I will always think I have the most amazing parents in the world.
Peace and many thanks to all of you for all of your support, prayer, and encouragement throughout the last two years... Martha